I have had a rough couple of days, maybe not by your standards but by mine… it has not been fun!
My hubby left early yesterday morning with our oldest son. They’ve gone for their annual, male bonding, winter camping trek, out into the deep woods of one of our beautiful Provincial parks this weekend. I don’t understand the need to stay in -30c weather — but he loves it. Really loves it! It goes back to his desire as a child to become a Forest Ranger I guess. He loves nature!
So yesterday they were off and things seemed to fall apart here on the home front. Something always seems to go wrong when he leaves. Almost every time! Why is that?!
After getting a ticket for dropping off the kids in the wrong zone at school, little Jake was sick with a fever, I had a massive charlie horse in the back of my thigh that didn’t want to go away, my throat started hurting big time and then the water in our house turned brown… my Missy started throwing up at 4am this morning and continued every hour almost on the hour after that. She’s still in bed and thankfully the vomiting has subsided. I am really not good with vomit. It’s my hubby’s area of expertise. I usually join in when I smell it or even think about it. For such a tough chick (as I consider myself to be, I had 4 natural childbirths of 4 very large children) I cannot handle puke.
I was sitting here, in my jammies still (working from home has its perks), and started to feel really sorry for myself, going over in my head the events of the last 24 hours.
What good is feeling sorry for myself going to accomplish? Absolutely nothing! I know that continuing to focus in on what’s going wrong around me, only magnifies the problems. And the longer I focus in on them, the harder it is to pull myself out of it.
God says to cast your burdens on Him for a reason. He cares for us! He doesn’t want us to get ourselves in the place where we feel life is falling all apart and that there is no solution. He also says that He has given us authority. Authority of what? The authority to gain the VICTORY in Jesus’ name! Victory over the littlest inconveniences to the major upsets. If I put my focus on where it belongs, off of me and onto God, my circumstances will change. They have no choice but to change.
Today I am going to, “Dwell in the shelter of the Most High, abiding in the shadow of the Almighty, as I say to the Lord- YOU ARE MY REFUGE and MY FORTRESS… I will seek refuge under His wings because his faithfulness is a shield.” (Psalm 91:1-4) I will continue to cast my burdens at his feet that I may know it is 100% POSSIBLE.
I will have the Victory this weekend!