This weekend I had an incredible time away with the ladies. Meryl came from L.A. and blessed the socks off of us – we will never be the same again. Like I said in the last post, an awakening has taken place.
I’ve felt an urgency to make some changes for a while, a few weeks ago God gave me a message about change and as I preached in in church… I was preaching to myself. There are some things / promises that I have known for a while that I need to do but I’ve been afraid to “leap” but God told me loud and clear – through Him speaking to me and to other ladies – this past weekend and I KNOW the time in now.
I’ve had the phrase, “Time is fleeting” going round and round in my spirit over the last month or so. When I was watching TV one night, I was actually just flipping around when I fell upon ‘Smallville’, Clark Kent was talking to someone from his home planet when he said something along these lines, “I’ve let things distract me from my destiny… I haven’t prepared myself – I’ve wasted so much time… trying to fit in and be human.” Romans 12:1-2 quickly came to mind – as I’ve been studying it big time in the last few weeks!
Just before this I had a dream after asking God what I should be studying to share with others, I saw a picture of someone going to sleep, they put their clothes for the next day to the side and climbed into bed. They woke up in the morning full dressed. What struck me was that they weren’t surprised to be in the clothes like magic. I know that it wasn’t a dream just for others but for me as well. Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God but we are also “Action figures with some assembly required”. We need to put what we’ve heard, been taught, seen… into practice. We don’t just wake up the next day all ready to go, there is work required and in order for that to happen — changes have to take place.
So in the SUV heading up north to this ladies getaway, we laid out our expectations on the table and one of mine was for strength – to be able to deal with a bunch of things – and to do what I know God has called me to do. Too many times over the last umpteen years, it has been confirmed by God through others that I am called to be beside my husband, to teach more, to preach more, etc. This has been difficult since I have 4 small children and also work part time outside the home – which is on top of the work I already do behind the scenes at the church but for the last few months – OK… years!! I’ve been using work and the kids as an excuse not to leap full steam ahead into the destiny God planned out for me before I was born. Using them as an excuse not even to get prepared for my destiny before it was time to leap!!
We registered at 7pm on Friday and inside my bag of treats was a card from Meryl. Inside was a Scripture verse she felt was specifically for me. Proverbs 31:26-31. I smiled when I first saw which verse it was, I love Proverbs 31 and I am heard frequently speaking verse 28 over my household, just look a few posts ago… My children will rise up and call their mother blessed! I liked that. It is my Scripture verse. Then I spent some time actually looking at the other – less obvious verses… or maybe just the ones that I wanted to ignore at the time… Verse 26, “She opens her mouth in skillful and godly Wisdom, and on her tongue is the law of kindness (giving counsel and instruction).” This is what has been spoken over me and I’ve heard it and heard it but I haven’t allowed it to sink in. Then of course verse 27 where it says that she looks well to how things go in her household… I haven’t been doing that. I’ve neglected my home to say the least.
Then at the end of the time with the ladies, I went up to one of the speakers (who flowed in prophecy all weekend long) to simply thank her for coming all this way. She saw that I was in a hurry, it was 7pm and it took 3 hours to get home… I said I could stay for a bit so she grabbed my hands and said, “Good ’cause God has given me a word for you.” OK – I’ll receive! She went through a few things which were so bang on! She ended with telling me about the gifts God has given to me and to use them and that the time was now. Just ask the ladies in the car with me, I was driving away bawling my eyes out. 🙂 How many times do you have to hear from God, the time is now?!
So I came home and knew I couldn’t put off changes any longer.
The first change: I resigned from my job Monday morning. I walked into my supervisor’s office with no feeling of regret but a huge sense of peace and calmness. I was able to articulate to her about the calling God has for me and that I need to walk in that now. I was also able to encourage her at the same time. I told her the time has come to stand beside my husband and be more of a partner within the life of the church. That I enjoy helping people financially but I enjoy helping them emotionally and spiritually more. This change will also release him from being the primary childcare provider that he has been for the past few years… and be able to do what God has called him to do.
The second change: This has a lot to do with what God has called me to do and I know I have allowed things to get in the way of my destiny for too long. On three different occasions in the past few months I’ve been told that I need to use and grow in the gifts God has given me, teaching and giving instruction to those who will listen. So I am taking the bull by the horns and God told me the time is now. Time is fleeting. I can no longer make any excuses.
I gave the ladies in our church pretty much one days notice for a ladies Bible study at my place. There were 13 of us round my kitchen table last night. It was a great night. I can’t wait until next week!!! I know it’s not just me, there is a heightened anticipation for what God is going to do in our midst, the train is in motion — FULL SPEED AHEAD!!!