Over the last couple of weeks, I have felt – at times – like my perfect little bubble had burst. Have you ever had that feeling? Where things go haywire and *stuff* happens that is out of your control? Whether it’s loosing a job or a relationship… and you feel like there’s nothing you could do about it? (that’s a lot of “feeling” going on… but that’s another learned lesson!)
This past Friday night while I was at a worship service at a church in one of the cities next to ours, I got on my knees and asked God, “What should I do?!” over and over again. Then I heard a still, small voice,
“Lift up your eyes!”
and I was reminded of what it says in Psalm 121.
1 I WILL lift up my eyes to the hills [around Jerusalem, to sacred Mount Zion and Mount Moriah] — From whence shall my help come?
2 My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth.
3 He will not allow your foot to slip or to be moved; He Who keeps you will not slumber.
4 Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand [the side not carrying a shield].
6 The sun shall not smite you by day, nor the moon by night.
7 The Lord will keep you from all evil; He will keep your life.
8 The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore.
What I realized over the last half of the past week and weekend, is that it’s only been difficult when I’ve tried to hold it all together – trying to make unhappy people – happy. Trying to please people. Trying to fix situations that really…. are beyond my fixing – which inevitably always leads to me focusing on the wrong thing. In reality, there are more good things happening in my life than bad. It all depends on what you focus on!
LOOK UP – not down and not even inwards – LOOK UP!
The Lord is your help; your protector, your provider, your guardian. He’s got your back – always and forever!
After I had this “epiphany” last week (and made it my status on Facebook to declare it), for me to focus on the good and what was going right and to stop looking at what was going wrong or what was missing… that night I took the kids to their Spring School Fair and won tickets to a local water park. On Friday, God told me to keep my eyes on Him… I received a gift card to Starbucks in the mail and on Saturday night new friends took us out to dinner. On Sunday, we had so many visitors at church, that we had to pull out more chairs!
See… God is good and His mercy endures forever!